Paul Weller said it perfectly.. hanging on a wire for a love i'll never find... mixing my emotions... blah blah blah... oh well life is life and it goes on and i'm feeling the way I felt along time ago. Work is rubbish today, need to pack things to move house, need to do loads and i want a person... grrr... I haven't wanted them for ages and ages i didn't need them in my life so why do i feel i do now? i'll feel a bit sad if i don't see them today, it's not looking likely.

Are things on the up? who knows I reckon i've got about a week to lose some weight before something exciting finally happens. I hope not to be disappointed, i hope it finally happens! It just has to - this tension is too much to bear i will probably explode soon. Just plan to be thinner I know I can do it, close my mouth and don't eat a thing... because then I will feel mor confident!

I'm just ranting here because I can and i just don't feel stupid and noone i know can read it. Had a dream last night that i was fat, my cousins had become really really skinny and i was just fat and distusting... made me think i need to deal with my weight issue, have gained so much i want to cry, honestly.
have only eaten fruit so far today, want to keep it that way - work tonight will be a challenge being around food (my enemy)all the time. Love to feel thin, to feel hungry i know i'm doing something good then.

There's nothing like a break up to help you lose weight!
It was my choice to end my 6 year relationship and feel pretty liberated....
there's just one problem tho and would really love some advice....

I haven't actually written anything for ages in here...
I was looking at some photos, and just feel so fat compared to my friends. I feel so distusting. I ate loads last night which means I am heavier today, have just had some soup and feel like I want to barf... feel so gross and blergh! why oh why can't I just be thin. why oh why do these thoughts consume my every waking moment. I feel out of control, if only just once I could achieve a goal get to a weight I could be happy with. I would feel proud if I could do it, to achieve something.
Its so frustrating................x

why do i judge my happiness on wether i'm lighter or not...
total fat day today, just can't seem to lose.
my body is holding on to every ounce of fat and i hate it.
hope you are all well today...
think thin girlies its a new day!
x

Hello again everyone,
I think I started on a bit of a downer last night, soz.
Anyhow so so glad i'm finally accepted and able to write to all you guys. Its a miracle I haven't gained today. need to fast and feel clean today.

anyone reading/read skinny bitch?

have a good day everyone mwah x

when i eat i just wanna make myself sick...
I have just stuck my fingers down my throat...
i try but i just can't face it...
i am fat...
i am a faliure...
i am such a loser...

What is one food that you refuse to try? Why?

No Meat or Fish cos the idea is just yucky!
The reason why is because I'm Vegan... x